Wednesday, January 11, 2006 @11:53 PM
This whole rain thing is driving me nuts.I'm feeling vain but i have to dress to weather.When i wear something nice,i walk out on the street and come back as if i went for a swim.
Not only physically,mentally too.I feel sleepy,i feel nua,I feel distracted and i feel alone...how sad...
I hv to dance nearle 12hrs a day wake up and dance almst 24/7...I'm really exhausted,i want to go back to the good old days where i can spend time with my 2 best fiends and the guys,go to church everyday.Treat it like a 2nd home.Atmosphere ther is warm n cosy...secure.I turn about and i have a whole bunch of friends to help me if i need the uncles and aunties offering their help to the youths.I really missed those days.
But i can't turn back i have a dream to pursue.If this fails i have no future unlike my other friends they can get a cert get a job that pays them like mad or maybe not.I won't be paid as high as them,unless i'm the best.In the world.I have to take care of my own injuries go on a healthy diet.I turn about and everybody can't wait till i break something my heart my passion.I have to depend on myself.I wish u guys could be there and we could have fun instead of sarcastic remarks made by ppl.My leg hurts but my heart hurts more...cause ppl won't understand how much i'm putting myself thru all this shits ppl give me.
I can't stand it i just want to run up to u and get a hug but i'm afraid to tell,afraid to show.Please tell me wat u think.