Monday, November 29, 2004 @2:20 AM
YEAH my o's are over.didnt feel as elevated as n's but then i feel that i put in much more effort in n's. oh well wateva its over.
Had grad night it was damn fun we did stupid things like hokey pokey and screaming our lungs out lol just to win mugs ugly looking mugs.The stupid dj made us fall k who the hell hold hands n spins in circle in a 4 inch heel meanie! i miss sch and my horrid classmates they were fun though.I miss valuable lessons i learn in school i meant life values no academic!
Thru all thus hush hush and buzz buzz to pass o lvl's and brushing up my dance i failed greatly as a person.I'm a bad friend a bad sister.haiz.
I'm not showing off or anything but its so hard to get u char.I had so much things to tell u but i didnt cuz i ws too bz n selfish . I just am not there when i think i'm suppose to .I will pray *i try* everyday tat u didnt make a wrg decision. I understand how u feel i can feel it too * yuck mushy* i'm serious! ur probaly the only stupid idiot who still reads my dumb blog everyday.And for goodness sake dun ever try to go thru all this by urself again ever.
My sis as u noe my family is not exactly perfect no one is .However my sis feels tat everyone is agsnt her but she doesnt see thru all that scoldng how much my family does care for her.My mum alws tells me the one she dotes the most is my sister yet my sis hates her the most dunnoe how to tell her.She wont listen .I understand her stubborness n bad temper runs in the whole family.Worse of all i'm not making things betta for her and my parents by being lazy.like not washing my bowls and keeping my clothes and then my mum wld scold her and force her to do it and she doesnt see it as that my mum thinks she is her best daughter and she wld alws help my mum out.I noe wat my mum feels.Shes not the best mum in the world but shes my only and for goodness sake stop expecting ppl to be perfect if ur not.My relationship with my sis is not getting any better but yet worse see i hv so much worries but i cant find ppl to tell.No one has time to listen no one notices the pains of other
Sunday, November 14, 2004 @11:23 AM
hiz ppl i'm finally free for once to type hehe.omg i think my dreamz will come tru i just saw my b4 fly away when i was doing my maths paper 2 so hard!! I'm very worried abt my results though nth has been going smoothly.
It wasnt like last yrs n's where i had a certain kind of assurance on whether i cld pass but this yr its really bad i noe i wont fail but i wouldnt get gd results either i just hope its 20 and nth more i really want to get into business.i'm so scared.wat if i cant get into business wat will i do.Dance.Do i really want to dance for the rest of my life.Scary.I'm so worried its making me so sick.hving friends like jia wei doesnt help cuz hes lazier then me my gosh and when i refuse to go out with him he'll call me few times in a day and persuade me to go out.hes really irritating me.
ps : hi nick haha and i want those shoes girl!lol