Sunday, October 01, 2006 @10:03 PM
What can he do to us, I don't believe that one mand can do anything to my life.I'm not afraid of jeopardizing your job. I just want my life back, we want a fair treatment, and we all just want to dance.Don't put your personal desires into work and causing our disorganization!
I hate it when i have to suffer unfair treatment due to someone's irresponsibility. I know its normal its always happening.Its unfair, but i'll take it but how much can i take how long can i sustain before i break down. I can't hold on long, i can feel my body starting to disengage from my thoughts, my feelings randomly explodes, and i can feel distraction.
Maybe that explains why i sprained my ankle yesterday i was just too tired, sick of dancing, sick of putting myself through that mental challenge everyday, the amount of energy i use to psyche myself into thinking i'm not tired is more then me dancing. I'm just tired of getting the technique right. I'm not meant to dance , I dun feel like is what i'm cut to be. I'm too weak, cant build strength.
Ok enough about dance.Just need to explode my emotions before i drive myself nuts. So much work to do i hate doing salsa history so difficult to understand. Stupid historians why do u have to be so smart. Did you know that salsa is a slave dance and so is many other social dances started out as. No wonder dancers are like slaves haha they do they same mundane work, low pay but worked harder then anyone else and don't get much regconition.Just a fact of the day.
Anyway so glad i went out to watch a movie today with Fadzli, despite of my sprained ankle he still made me shop with him j/k...LOL.After watching the movie i realise how practical i've become, its kinda scary. I no longer buy unecessary things anymore. Everything is for dance. I haven't dressed up in a long long time. I use to over accessorize and tie funny hairstyle, spend time thinking of how i could dress to kill, LOL. But watching "devil wears prada" made me realise what i've been missing out. Hmm i'm not sure if its really missing out but i would love to be able to spend freely, think about the present only and forget the future and waste my life away occassionally. Not being able to dance today i didn't miss dancing infect i was getting irritated when people danced.Peculiar isn't it. Maybe i just need to get distracted for awhile. Maybe i should start looking for someone special...haha.
P.s thats for not giving me ur blog address! LOL