Sunday, April 22, 2007 @1:15 AM
I hope I do not fail my theory so scary!! I just can't imagine having to stay back and be in the same class as Alison, Ann or blah blah blah I don't want!!. But my grades are not that bad I think I scored well for dance science and dance history. I am not very sure if 40 is the passing mark for theory but i hope it is then I should pass. I hope.
My goal next semester if I make it is to be more discipline. I'm going to keep a journal to begin my journey. Then I'll make changes to my daily habit and be more observant to peoples' way of dancing , choreographing and teaching. Make notes and make sure i'm early and finish off my work!!
Saturday, April 14, 2007 @3:39 AM
I feel extremely deflated, heart broken and numb. I really feel that i can't dance believe it or not. Maybe I just suck as a dancer, I have no talent or passion. One day i ase our guest artist Loretta Livingston what was her stand on passion. She said something like passion is like love it comes for bliss periods then it disappears i am lucky if i even have it, Sometimes i hate my parents but I still love and respect them that is how she defined passion. Passion is a mutual believe or intuition that this is the my goal my dream, like finding a guy you like. At the end of the day you realise maybe we just cannot work out or hes not my type blah blah....that is how i feel about dance now I feel like getting a break-up.
I'm no longer upset that i did not get the parts, infect I accepted it too gracefully that i doubt my passion for dance.Shouldn't I be frustrated, disappointed or angry. But I only nearly teared but not heartbroken enough to cry.
Sunday, April 01, 2007 @4:21 AM
Quoted from xiao xiao
omg. i know that i have to to rush back and do the finishing touches in my presentation for tml but i have to go out meet sammy my dearest and together with meng hooi, to CELEBRATE Alice, Adeline and my [belated] birthday. we went to NEW YORK NEW YORK. whoever wants to celebrate a loud and crazy birthday, do go there. the service is good. staff are friendly and crazy and fun.
so for the whole few hrs were all fun, laughs and more laughs.
we took a bus down from school and went to citylink. meng hooi bought a cake while i bought 2 cute, tiny pink strawberry heart shape cake. we headed over to NYNY, like some big time bosses [actually it is only meng]. she simply passed the cakes to the staff there and asked to keep in the fridge. and so embarrassing, the staff told us that we have to queue outside since we did not book a table. we were like OMG! but never mind. they were nice.
when we finally got our table, we waited for sammy to place our orders. oh once sammy was here. all break loose. we were like the most noisy and loud table. i mean u can't blame us, we have not seen sam for such a long time. boy, we eat and laugh and eat and talk. so much to gossip and catch up on. lolx. like the good old days.
at about 9.30pm, adeline came from teaching in LADC. sam, being crazy hid under the table. to wait for the right moment to surprise adeline. and well being bimbo, adeline did the most funny reaction. it was hilarious. got out cake, from the lovely staff who sang for us. how sweet. like i said, they are the friendliest staff so far. go there and support good quality service. so we were eating cake. and this ALICE apparently heard something "funny" from sam and could not control herself and went spitting the cake out from her mouth at me and Sam. i was like what the! Alice aiming was particularly good today and a tiny piece together with her saliva went flying into my right eye. and all i call go was EWWWWW! we were in a mess i tell you. seriously. the staff they were kind and funny especially A.J. i love you.
we went off at about 10pm i think and second silliest thing happened. meng who kept complaining that Sam took lousy photos said she wanted to take for us. so instead of holding the camera lens towards us, it was aways. we were like huh?! lolx. i went blank for awhile as i don't know how to react, but the most natural thing to do is to... ... ... ... LAUGH!
oh well it was fun too bad that silly zachzach did not come. he and his movies and his free time. dunno how to make time for us meh? lolx. mr. air steward
I'm doing too much typing i'm tired so I copy LOL. I did not go back with them I went out with Fadzil and Selena who kindly brought me out for dinner as I requested LOL and they bought me a mango cake! yumz. oh and my student esther bought me a bright orange daisy my favourite! by accident.Back to dinner we went to makan sutra to eat happy pot but too bad the old lady boss was not there the new men of the stalls were not very nice. THey looked like they wanted to rob us.but we had great dinner and i took cab back!. then the next day I had family dinner. I have yet meet up with karen and char. I thought we were celebrating with kenneth. haha what happened.
THis year is happiest because I reach a nice ripe age of 20.yucks. Nothing bad happened at least no argument, missing family members, sars, holy days failed test ,horrid scoldings or serious bad luck. I very suay right, maybe things will change this year i hope for new and better year!!