Saturday, April 14, 2007 @3:39 AM
I feel extremely deflated, heart broken and numb. I really feel that i can't dance believe it or not. Maybe I just suck as a dancer, I have no talent or passion. One day i ase our guest artist Loretta Livingston what was her stand on passion. She said something like passion is like love it comes for bliss periods then it disappears i am lucky if i even have it, Sometimes i hate my parents but I still love and respect them that is how she defined passion. Passion is a mutual believe or intuition that this is the my goal my dream, like finding a guy you like. At the end of the day you realise maybe we just cannot work out or hes not my type blah blah....that is how i feel about dance now I feel like getting a break-up.
I'm no longer upset that i did not get the parts, infect I accepted it too gracefully that i doubt my passion for dance.Shouldn't I be frustrated, disappointed or angry. But I only nearly teared but not heartbroken enough to cry.